Sophia's Writings

Scattered Thoughts and Ink Spilled

Monday, October 15th, 2007

With words spoken, thoughts start flying out in every direction. I try to capture them, snatch whatever I could reach.
I flail.
I run.
I reach.
I fall.
Sitting up and staring at my left fist, I wonder what I’d discover hidden within. Hope resides amongst ill-feelings and doubts. Wishing I’d break free and feel the rush of satisfaction with [...]

The Old Building

Monday, October 2nd, 2006

As she stares across the road, she sees the rubble — remnants of the rundown building that stood there on the now empty lot. She wonders what had become of the people who lived in it.
Out of habit, she takes her nightly coffee and cigarette on her front porch where she could witness, without meaning [...]

Kiarra’s Plea

Saturday, June 3rd, 2006

My Lord,
I come to you kneeling in eternity. I bear gifts and symphonies. Let it be a sweet aroma that surrounds your throne. Please turn your eyes and look upon me. Please do not hide your face from me.
I came and experienced you on earth without question. I came to you in wonder and joy. [...]

Three Decades of a Recluse

Thursday, May 18th, 2006

A man in search of a dream bourne from a moment’s pain that has been echoing in his mind and heart all this time. His hope that he will reach the end and piece back together the remnants of dashed hopes arising from his waking up to an illusion.
After years of isolation, he faced a [...]

If I die

Thursday, May 4th, 2006

If I die tonight
It should be said
How at my life’s end
I have left everything amiss
I lied
I disobeyed
I disrespected
How unfair that I’ve seen
A life so bleak
So gray
So plain
How much I hate where I stand
Wish myself dead
Unloved
Unappreciated
Now –
Condemned
My heart feels no love
From the alleged creator
For if the only source of understanding
On what love really is
My family
My father
My [...]

Despite the Irony

Friday, April 28th, 2006

The emptiness seems to fill me
The sadness seems to make me happy
The loneliness seems to comfort me
The irony of life seems to work for me
Is God empty?
Instead, He is the meaning
Does God bring sadness?
Instead, He brings happiness
If God is there, am I ever lonely?
He is omnipresent
God has brought me this far in life.
It may not [...]

Learning to breathe

Friday, April 14th, 2006

Sophia sits quietly on the curb, smoking a cigarette. It was middle of the night and the somewhat full moon lights up the already star-filled sky. She was alone on the street where her house stood, drinking in the solace that that moment offered her. Perhaps she is not alone, her thoughts accompany her. Memories [...]

Staring at the Heavens

Sunday, April 9th, 2006

my cries are muted by the role i must play.
my longings are subdued by the shame of wanting.
grey days stretch as far as time wills it.
barefooted, i walk, falteringly, reaching out.
dark skies beckon my suppressed anger.
drops of rain mask the tears.
thunder drowns out the cries from my lips.
see the blood on my hands that no [...]

Just between the two of us

Tuesday, April 4th, 2006

She can feel the steam coming out of her skin. She was trapped in a boxed space to face her demons. With clenched fists, she prepares herself for a blow. Trickles of perspiration run down her back. She quickly wipes off beads of sweat from her brow. She knew she shouldn’t miss. She takes a [...]

Finding Shelby

Friday, March 10th, 2006

Sophia runs her fingers over the shiny candle apple red side panel of a 1966 Shelby GT350 Mustang. She admired the car from afar before daring herself to come for a closer look. She has been dreaming about driving a car like that, owning a car like that.
The keys were in the ignition, beckoning [...]